Your life is not lying in wait in the future like a wild animal or some ominous destiny. Nor is it hidden in the heavens, like a paradise or promise. Nor is it shut up in the cave or the prison of your past. It is here and now; it is what you live and what you do. At the heart of being; at the heart of the present; at the heart of everything – in the great current of life, of reality.
Andre Comte-Sponville

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

*Sleeping Babes*

I love watching my girls sleep! I do it - alot. Sometimes I snuggle up to them to take in their sweet, sweet smells. Sometimes, I trace the features of their faces - Brenna's beautiful lips and Aubree's adorable nose. Sometimes, I rub their backs. Sometimes, I stroke their gorgeous hair. Sometimes, I hold their hands - their tiny fingers inner laced with mine. Sometimes, I just sit and watch and get filled up with gratitude that they are mine...all mine.:) Always, I whisper sweet nothings in their little ears, and I am, often, rewarded with a sleepy smile - and it doesn't get much better than that!

*Ten Years*

How is possible that my baby girl is ten years old, already?? It seems like it was just yesterday that she looked like this...

and here she is today...


It seems like such a short time ago I was finding out I was pregnant with Brenna. It was Feb. 2nd, 2000 - the day after I turned 28 years old and what an awesome birthday present it was!! The minute - no, the second! - I found out I was pregnant I was in love!! I loved this girl from the moment I knew she was inside me. I quit my job right after finding out I was pregnant, and I spent the next nine months, in bliss, waiting for her to come! I loved being pregnant! I spent my days talking to her ... almost as if she was already here.:) And when she, finally, arrived - oh my....the love just doubled, then tripled, then quadrupled, then quintupled, as the days went on!! I cried with joy every time I looked at her - I was in awe of her. And the loves just keeps growing...

Brenna is a delight - pure and simple. She's kind, funny, stubborn (sticks to her guns, I love it), talented, smart, creative, mischievious (in a good way!), outgoing, and loving. Oh, trust me, I could go on and on, but I wouldn't want anyone to think I'm bragging.:)

Happy Birthday, Brennie!! I love you. Thank you for bringing so much good to my life!!!!

Friday, September 24, 2010

**New Beginning**

“The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins.”

~Bob Moawad